Soul crushed. Five pounds lost. Loss, devastation, disillusionment. For the first time in my life walking around feeling as though I would pass out. Understanding that the person I love is incapable of loving me back. Seeing her incapable of saving herself, even with my help.

Anger, anger at self for feeling anger, for not being able to be all light, all love.

No means to quell the pain but through time.

Knowing that I will always love her, despite her willful contribution to soul crushed, five pounds lost, etc.

Goodbye, great spirit. If only you could truly understand the love I have for you.